Needless to say I was extremely confused about my career after I gave birth to my little one. My perception of career, family life has changed for ever. Yes, for ever. I always imagined my life to be all the time positive because I have had a blessed child hood. Not that I wasn't independent / forced upon after marriage but yes, life took a full 360 degree turn :). Perhaps, I am just blowing it out of proportion..
Let me summarize..
It was on June 1st week of 2011, my home pregnancy kit has showed positive.. hmmm.. Having had a mis carriage in the last quarter of 2010, I was scared to death about this. This time I decided to not reveal it to my mom also until doctors confirms that all is well :) It's just that I don't want her to be worried a lot :)
I had a great time during my pregnancy, first trimester issues with severe nausea, too much sleep etc but wasn't bad. Second Trimester was the best I would say. No symptoms and no feeling of pregnancy because I didn't even feel baby movements. Third quarter is when I could feel the baby jumping/kicking what not .. as a regular TO-BE mom, an endlessly worried mom about giving birth to a healthy baby, I kind of got worried so much if baby isn't active in a day. Then days passed on, like everyone, my mom was here in Connecticut with us . After a week of her arrival, doctors advised me to have my labor induced.
After a lot of struggle, 3 days in hospital with pains, I gave birth to a healthy baby with a little lower weight though but that's not a concern at all.. There came my prince :) There was so much of confusion when I first held him.. CAn I really bring this boy up? Will I be a good mother? what not.. there was a flood of thoughts but I took him with a smile.. I got discharged almost immediately and we went home..
After 3 months of Maternity leave, I was so very confused to leave my kid and go to office. Do I really need to work? What is my future? What If I don't work? but my idea of leaving the kid in day care and going back to work has changed for ever.. I just couldn't take it anymore :)
That's when my husband came into the picture and told me "You know it's a tough job but try .. Give it a try and let's see how you will succeed".. Yes, I could WFH for half a day and remaining half, I could leave the kid with a baby sitter..
That's my saga.. whenever he's not well, I still get these feelings but I am far way a head now. I understood life is all this and we got to be strong.. if we have to work, we will have to learn to manage both house hold chores and work highly organized. Otherwise, it's very difficult. I am a master in doing that.. First priority is my son, next is my career.. With the help of my wonderful husband who takes care of my son equally and helps me with all the chores at home. I am here ladies and gentleman.. Getting along :) like any other working woman in this industry!!
Let me summarize..
It was on June 1st week of 2011, my home pregnancy kit has showed positive.. hmmm.. Having had a mis carriage in the last quarter of 2010, I was scared to death about this. This time I decided to not reveal it to my mom also until doctors confirms that all is well :) It's just that I don't want her to be worried a lot :)
I had a great time during my pregnancy, first trimester issues with severe nausea, too much sleep etc but wasn't bad. Second Trimester was the best I would say. No symptoms and no feeling of pregnancy because I didn't even feel baby movements. Third quarter is when I could feel the baby jumping/kicking what not .. as a regular TO-BE mom, an endlessly worried mom about giving birth to a healthy baby, I kind of got worried so much if baby isn't active in a day. Then days passed on, like everyone, my mom was here in Connecticut with us . After a week of her arrival, doctors advised me to have my labor induced.
After a lot of struggle, 3 days in hospital with pains, I gave birth to a healthy baby with a little lower weight though but that's not a concern at all.. There came my prince :) There was so much of confusion when I first held him.. CAn I really bring this boy up? Will I be a good mother? what not.. there was a flood of thoughts but I took him with a smile.. I got discharged almost immediately and we went home..
After 3 months of Maternity leave, I was so very confused to leave my kid and go to office. Do I really need to work? What is my future? What If I don't work? but my idea of leaving the kid in day care and going back to work has changed for ever.. I just couldn't take it anymore :)
That's when my husband came into the picture and told me "You know it's a tough job but try .. Give it a try and let's see how you will succeed".. Yes, I could WFH for half a day and remaining half, I could leave the kid with a baby sitter..
That's my saga.. whenever he's not well, I still get these feelings but I am far way a head now. I understood life is all this and we got to be strong.. if we have to work, we will have to learn to manage both house hold chores and work highly organized. Otherwise, it's very difficult. I am a master in doing that.. First priority is my son, next is my career.. With the help of my wonderful husband who takes care of my son equally and helps me with all the chores at home. I am here ladies and gentleman.. Getting along :) like any other working woman in this industry!!
